Thoughts and reflection

A new year, and an introspective on last year

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I haven’t been on hiatus. Instead, I spent the past 6 months on an introspective, of sorts, and a very personal experiment. It’s allowed me to remove my rosy-colored perceptions of the world, and to see for myself first-hand just how society and the pervasive nature of negative media has in general caused us to almost autonomously practice prejudice, stereotyping, and typecasting on a daily basis.

I’ve always approached the topic of love that it should always be unconditional. It might be because I am innocent and don’t know otherwise. Sure, people will always have their flaws. But to judge someone based on preconceived notions of “how they might be” because of their religion, creed, ethnicity, or even experience, is quite possibly one of the worst imaginable things you can do to someone. I strongly and respectfully disagree that it’s about “choice”. It’s impossible to know just what a person is like by stereotyping them right out the gate.

The world isn’t all peaches and cream. Everything is not sunny, warm, and happy. I’ve learned that the world is much crueler than I could have ever imagined. It’s one thing for human nature to fear things that he/she can’t control, but it’s quite another to have conditions superimposed on you from the beginning. It becomes an insurmountable hill to climb. So you end up trying, failing, and starting over, only to experience the same thing, the next sometimes being varying degrees of worse than the last. And it’s a vicious cycle that seems never-ending. It can have quite a detriment to one’s psyche.

I’ve become one of those who have experienced first hand how so many people feel left out, hopeless, with no emotional support, and with no recourse. For me, music is my recourse. It is the one thing that allows me to express my anguish and provides me with a respite. It allows me to speak collectively about my experiences. It is how something beautiful can come from so much hurt. Perhaps those who have dealt it will come to realize and change their ways after listening? Probably not. But let my music serve as an anthem to those who have no other recourse. We hope things will get better for us all. And most importantly, never give up. What is life without hope? So keep on hoping: hoping to win, and hoping to be successful in all endeavors.

Father’s Day without Dad

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There’s nothing wrong with Father’s Day. Every day should be Father’s Day. And Mother’s Day, for that matter. As everyone celebrates Father’s Day this year, this is instead the first Father’s Day that my Dad is not here. There are probably millions (or billions) of other people who have lost their father and can’t celebrate or even look at this day the same way.

Being able to buy gifts for my Dad and seeing his happiness this day was truly an honor, and one that I will never get to experience again.

Saying that I love my Dad goes way beyond posting his pic on Facebook, or changing my profile pic to a one that includes him, or saying a platonic thing like “Love you Dad/Miss you!” and then going right back to being a careless, disobedient, person who brings no value to society and to mankind.

Instead, honor your Dad, whether he is here or not. By being a good, respectful, upstanding person. A person of character and value. And most importantly, one who offers something positive to society in order to make it a better place. Guaranteed if you do these things, your Dad will always be happy with you. He could ask for no less.

I’ll continue to try to be just that. Happy Father’s Day to my Dad, and all those who have lost theirs.

Prevail: Track 1 from Eternity

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Thought you all might like a listen. This is the first track, titled Prevail, from the new album Eternity.

My Dad: Full track #11 from Eternity

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May 30th is a very special day to me. It’s the day that my new album Eternity becomes available worldwide. It’s a time for me to think in retrospect, about all the adversity, sadness, the yearning; yet, it is a time to reflect upon the happiness, the success, and the hope that exists in each one of our lives.

When things settled down, and I got a chance to get back into the studio, time stood still; I realized that my Dad wasn’t with us anymore. So I wrote this song for him. This composition captures the spectrum of raw emotions that I experienced while I created it.

The name of this song is My Dad, which is 우리 아빠 in Korean. It is track 11 off my new album Eternity.

I hope my Dad would be proud of this song. I certainly am, and I hope you will be too.